Friday 18 December 2009

Aspen leaves


Said the earth to the sky

Take me into your open palm

Wrap around me, hold me tight

Lift me onto the wings of a breeze

Pull me upwards help me rise

Leave in its wake my gems and a quiver

Trembling bodies dispersed behind

Like aspen leaves that dance in time

Shake off thy shadows but see them so

Accept them, love them, see them whole

Listen to them, unite them, speak try to speak

Further and further up I rise

Etched into land the shadows shrink

As gravity explodes and stars sail by

A thousand particles sweep to the spot

Transforming shapes to be born anew




Said the sky to the earth

Rest your head close your eyes

Take some stardust, take them inside

Feel them glitter, absorb within

Glow my dear and grow

A thousand branches embrace together

A bottle trunk a watery well

To dip inside in times of strife

Parched is the land, burnt is the grass

Wash thy face, water thy core

And may roots spread across the river beds

And may leaves flutter as they travel

Never alone, never ceasing

Always alive, always breathing.



Saturday 12 December 2009

Does the human me exist? - an invitation into the real world in the age of machines and humans on the road less travelled...

AI and intelligent computers programmed by intelligent people conjures up images of machines taking over the world but of course the computers are only ever going to get as good as their creators. But what if their creators do not think of all scenarios and the computers programmed reflect this mindset which then are used as a benchmark for humanity to follow...the dumbing down of the human mind through the use of computers...this story is my story, it is a real story of the dehumanisation process at work...a case study for the creators of machines...and an invitation into the real world, the human world...

The following is a copy of the email messages exchanged between myself trying to purchase some DVDs online and a high profile merchant banker and a retailer during the past couple of days. Note I have ommitted names and personal details for this public posting but I think I shall send them a link to this blog post!

Dear AniaThank you for your order. Here is your access information, which you can start using today. DVDs will be shipped in 24 hours.

Regards.
[Name]

Dear Ania:Your order was cancelled. I do not know if it was cancelled by you or by [retailers merchant bank] . We have sent you login information for 4 E-Books by [author's name]. Can you please pay for those items total $[].
Thanks.
[Name]


Dear [Name]

I would like to complete the transacton for the DVDs as well as the E-books. I'm not sure why the order was cancelled. Which is the best method of payment?

Many thanks, Ania.

Dear [Retailers Merchant Bank]
I purchased 4 DVDs and ebooks from [retailer] on 9 December 2009. Please indicate why this order was cancelled and why the amount has been refunded to my [merchant banking] account. I need these items asap. Please indicate the steps I need to take to make payment. I have a valid Visa card and a [merchant banking] account.
Kind regards
Ania

Dear [Name]
Thank you for contacting [retailer's merchant bank]. I apologize for the inconvenience that this has caused you. The order that you have requested information on has been canceled by our fraud department. After extensive review, the fraud department made the determination that this order has a significant risk of being fraudulent, and instead of taking that risk, the order was canceled. If you believe that this order was canceled in error, please reply to this ticket and we can forward you to our fraud team for a more detailed explanation of why the order was not accepted.Please let me know if I can be of further assistance.
[Name]

Why do you consider fraud? My visa card and [merchant banker] accounts are valid. Please reverse the refund.
Kind regards

Ania


Hello [Name],
A staff member has replied to your question:
Hello [Name],
Thank you for contacting [retailer's merchant bank]. I apologize for the delay in responding to your inquiry. This order was canceled for multiple reasons, the billing address is in the United Kingdom, but your IP address is coming from the States. The order is then being shipped to a different customer name in Dubai and lastly you are signing every email with [commonly used name], but the name on the order is [passport name]. For these reasons, you will need to contact the vendor to establish another form of payment.
Please feel free to reopen this ticket if you need any additional assistance.
[Name]


Thank you for your response. Yes my bank is in [UK location]and billing address is at my home in [UK location]. I work in Dubai and my IP address comes from Dubai (not US as you have detected).This email I am responding from my blackberry device which will have a different IP again and yes I understand these things because I am an IT teacher. The items I bought are a gift for a friend. My passport name is Anna but I have been known as Ania all my life and this is the name I use on all my emails. My address and names are real and valid and my bank at [bank name]has tight controls in place. Does it still sound surreal? Know that I am real and the valid holder of the [merchant bank] and Visa [bank name] account. Could you not contact my bank before claiming my details are false?
Kind regardsAnia


You have inspired me to write about your claims in my blog http://aniainaction.blogspot.com/2009/12/age-of-machines-and-humans-on-road-less.html which I invite you to read. May we learn from the experience and move forward.

Please indicate how I could complete the purchase of these DvDs.

Kind regards
Ania.


...waiting for a response...does the human me exist...

Hello Ania,
A staff member has replied to your question:
Hello Ania,
Thank you for contacting [retailer's merchant bank]. I apologize for the delay in responding to your inquiry. Unfortunately, we are unable to reinstate [my merchant bank]orders. You would need to place a new order with the retailer
. We will make sure the new order is passed during our fraud review process.

Thank you,
[Name]

Hi, Ania,Sorry for all inconvenience it caused to you. I also do not understand why did they cancel the order. Usually if they consider some order probably fraudulent, they check it and then post the money. Did you hear from them? Did you pay with paypal account or with your credit card? Do you want to try the different way or do you want to wait for their response. Meanwhile please confirm the shipping address.
Regards.[Name]

It seems that I do exist... Thank you for intervening and the human touch :)

Friday 6 November 2009

Letting go


All four sinews pulling tight
Into a ball forming knots with interconnecting sides
Release all toxins and travel the sinewy paths
Upwards to the chest and radiate to the neck
Torment and grief the wretched walls squeeze together
Air collapsing on itself –a nothingness ousted
Bending boughs touch the ground
Doubling up as muscles pull tighter
No release, no relief, let go, let go
Before it fragments into pieces fine
Shadows left of a time behind

As lovers they traversed their golden paths
Rushes bowed at the garden gate
And onlookers looked a thousand times
Centred inside their gilded lillies
An awe, an energy, a passion true
The river swelled as diamonds grew
For they are real and embedded deep
Internal prisms shine beyond
No masks, no layers, no bridges, no doubts
Confidence paints a living frame
To clutch, caress, breathe and hold.


The earthly’s gone; left its home
Uprooted from a mother’s embrace
The swelling’s intense, a plain to flood
But parched is the earth; arid is the bough
The rock inside matted deep
And as it explodes inside my core
A thousand diamonds cut my ducts
My eyes are blinded, I hardly see
But feel the pain bodies as they leave
And travel to abodes anew
I must let go, I must let go.

Wednesday 7 October 2009

Connect


Relief and upwards rise O air
I want to breathe, lift thy veil
Uncover me
Relax, retire may tenseness rise
Remove thy shield
Reveal thee
Rest, restore may energy flow
Open door, connect in space
Transparency

Friday 2 October 2009

An Emirati wedding!

Imagine an underground carpark about the size of an atheletes track about 200m long, a live stage set with 100m full screen backdrop, a stylised ocean theme filled with 4000 of the most beautiful female guests dressed in the most exquisite gowns and you really have the makings of a night to remember.

I have just come back from an amazing wedding reception and am compelled to write about it as it was one of the most breathtaking celebrations I've ever taken part in. Emirati weddings are celebrated by women and men separately and so we arrived at 8:30pm to this all women event dressed in long gowns with boleros and delicate sandals.

As we neared the entrance to the Trade Centre the soundscape of chanting males engulfed us. Men of all ages, dressed in long white kandoora, red headscarfs and lined up in rows were dancing a traditional dance with sticks. The dance movements of the old and young alike, the words of preparation for past battles, and the stick-spinning and air-throwing techniques reflected the richness of poetry and story-telling which are central to the Emirati living heritage.

Being enthralled by the men and the grandeur of this spectacle at the front entrance, we were almost enticed not to venture inside, but as we were deliberating whether to absorb the present moment or move inside we were swept inside by many highly-scented Emirati women in very elegant black head to floor cloaks most with hoods called abayas. We went with the flow and not wanting to move past the men, we soon found ourselves swept indoors and facing security much like an airport check-in except managed by female only police. We were asked to hand-in phones and we and our clutches were scanned. On the other side of the scanning machines awaited a few buggies with svelte-figured female drivers dressed in white. I felt as if I was on a movie set of a fabulous sci-fi movie about women who run the world and wondered if the movie indeed was inspired by the Middle East... The air was thick with anticipation; beneath the flowing abayas were spotted diamonds daring to sparkle through the woven cloth. Beautiful smiling eyes sparkling with even greater beauty greeted each other warmly as women kissed and hugged before taking in the surroundings we were about to enter. In the hallway as far as the eye could see the 10-12m walls were adorned in cream and beige silk wall hangings printed with gold block-print geometric patterns. We decided to walk the aquamarine carpet to take in the scenery.

The woody scent of bukhoor welcomed us at the entrance to the reception. In front of me was a white stage with a massive neon light sculpture the height of a 2 story building and the width of a basketball court. Its flowing curves was fashioned into the crest of a wave about to break on the shore I was standing on. i turned my head to the right and saw about 50 plus rows of long curved tables draped in white that wrapped around the stage. I turned to the left and saw even more tables. We stood in awe for about 5 mins before realising we were blocking the entrance...

The neon light sculpture cast a light blue hue on the white tablecloths and clothed chairs. Within the sea of tables curving the stage, our eyes scanned for familiar faces. We located friends quickly and after exchanging greetings sat down to absorb the activity going on around us. People were gliding with purposeful strides to find tables for their friends and families; stopped in their tracks as greetings were exchanged by the customary kiss on each side of the cheek. Sometimes, once on one side followed by twice on the other side. Most ladies had left their abayas on leaving the front of their black gowns open to reveal either the traditional kandooras or the more elegant thoab or designer silk satin and chiffon gowns some encrusted with pearls, diamonds or other jewels. The women who dressed traditionally often wore burqas - a leather cloth covering the forehead and the mouth. I was surprised to see many young ladies wearing these, revealing their eyes and a little of their colourful kandooras. Many women had their waist length hair most often in curly ringlets revealed. Children were all dressed elegantly in long gowns and slippers. Their shiny curled locks were either pinned up or they wore their tresses down with flower arrangements, diamond hairbands or clips adorning their hair. They seemed to enjoy mingling with the adults.

The table was laden with beautiful cutlery. White and silver rimmed square dinner sets in 4 layers awaited us. Still water was served in very fine swirl etched cocktail glasses from beautiful frosted Fillico glass bottles, each adorned with blue Swarovski crystals. The centrepiece of each table was a glass sculpture with an abstract representation of a wave, the crests of which were very long stems of white orchids tumbling down onto the tablecloths. Blue chocolates were piled up on cake servers and bowls of nuts and white and blue yoghurt coated almonds completed the picture.

An abundant spread of hummus, labneh, moutable, tabouli, vine leaves, cheese balls rolled in zatar herbs and pita bread was presented delightfully in little dishes in front of each guest. Waitresses just did a magnificent job. There were two types - what I would call waitresses and hostesses. The hostesses were dressed in black hijab (a tight head covering to keep hair in place) who wore white sheer veils with silver star sparkles and were wrapped in white silky cloths. They first served us Arabic coffee with an aromatic cardamon flavour in small glasses from silver Arabic coffee pots called dallah. This was followed by servings of a ginger and almond sweet hot appetizer with a glutinous texture. It was quite tasty, but very sweet! Also sweet were the legaimat which are small doughnuts dripping in a warm honey sauce and sprinkled lightly with sesame seed. As we were being served these warm appetizers, hostesses visited us frequently with a scented oil in a large square bottle with a dipstick. We dabbed the gorgeous scent on the underside of our wrists and rubbed a little behind the ears. Next came the bukhoor which is an exquisitely scented wood burning in an incense burner. We waved our hair through the smoke and the hostess held the burning incense between us so that the smoke would permeate our clothing.

I need to add that all this time we were waiting for the arrival of the bride. Traditionally she doesn't turn up till quite late in the evening usually after dinner's been served.

While absorbing some of the viusals immediately within our personal space, live Arabic performers sang on stage. A male voice sung long poetic ballads to pre-recorded oud, drums and ensemble music. It was difficult to see him in the distance but 4 large screens (at least the size of football screens) were placed on the 4 walls enabling everybody to get a close-up view of the activity on the stage. A number of dancing girls with long hair swayed to the rhythm, often breaking out into swift movements of neck and head swinging their long tresses. As my eyes ventured out of my personal space I looked up. The massive hall was painted black as in a huge theatre auditorium...the rigging in the ceiling and the number of spot lights and other down lighting with gels contributed to our anticipation of an event that was about to happen... fairy lights adorned all the vacant space on the walls and waves of light softly flowed in rhythm with the scent as it wafted around us.

The colours of the water and the rhythms of the shore played an important part of this upcoming marriage and it was then that I understood the symbolism of the water. The Emirati bride was about to marry a Bahraini and the Arabic meaning and literal translation of Bahrain is 'two seas'...

We waited imaptiently for the bride to arrive knowing full well that this was one emotional day for her. I could imagine the courage one would have to muster in order to rise to the occasion...

But there was no time for listening to the swelling of thoughts for the first main course was being served...

...the colours were vivid...platters of rice caught my eye -golden sunset saffron yellow with touches of fiery red contrasted with the coolness of dilled rice. Goat, mutton and chicken in curry sauces, okra stew and fish dressed in red whetted everbody's appetites...

A change of mood...walkie talkies were out and security were clearing the middle aisle...could this be the time for the bride...

A voice, a video clip of a charming Prince appeared on the huge screen. In Arabic he spoke of his affection for his Princess...the crowd listened, laughed and cheered..and the clapping soundscape was soon overlapped by the whirring of motors; we looked up and out of the ceiling descended a huge oblong shape with a glass top. The rectangular obelisk measured approximately 100m in length and was about 1-5 m in width...

We felt the presence of the bride before our eyes made her presence known to us. She appeared on stage and on the four walls of the massive room. The ululations and greetings of Emirati women resonated around the room with an oscillating reverberation almost as wide as that of the brilliant rose gems that shone a trail of glittering light as the bride ventured forward. Mum and sisters at her side, with her, holding her as she slowly walked past our moonstruck eyes.

She breathed heavily, glancing at everyone in the eyes, often showing the most beautiful smile and connecting with an emotional energy to all present in the room...not only did the gems sparkle...

On her return to the stage, accompanied by female family members and we listened to the Prince reciting a poem he had written to her. He spoke of Youssef, a handsome Prophet whose legend tells us that he was such a beautiful human being that half of his beauty was distributed among the people of the earth), jameela (beauty) and hayaty (life). [Hania help...I couldn't understand more than this...please enlighten...] and the bride sparkled, and the guests sparkled...

As soon as the bride sat down, the dancers appeared on stage and dessert was served. Chocolate mousse, umm ali (bread pudding), flan, and local pastries appeared.

...still writing...

Tuesday 15 September 2009

Perfection wait on an open palm

For a moment I could consider the fact that the strive for perfection is needed in our lives. For how would we learn and grow and feel satisfaction if we do not learn to acquire mastery of a chosen skill?


From birth it is our mothers who so often engage in us the need to be perfect. They want the best in us, and strive to push us into a direction of perfection. But for some, having to be ‘perfect’ injects fear into even starting. We fear taking that risk into the unknown, fear making mistakes leading to failure and fear that we will be compared to somebody better and so we even start to doubt our own abilities. We stop ourselves to such an extent that we enter a state of denial and even stop engaging the thought that life could be more meaningful if we pursued that activity or that path we had always wanted to pursue.


Some people are able to overcome their fears. Therefore, striving for perfection is a goal they work towards. Is striving for perfection healthy for these people when it acts as a goal - an end to the means? I guess it is if we don’t forget that it is the means to the end that can give us great satisfaction and make our lives meaningful. If we subconsciously bypass the means we come to an end i.e. perfection the end of a journey without really having travelled that journey.


So can we only experience satisfaction through achieving perfection? Can happiness only be found in mastery of a certain skill? Can we not be happy and satisfied with less than perfect?

Forget the end I say, let’s focus on the path…everything we do on this path, given we apply full integrity and attention to our activities, can be meaningful. A tune played on one string of a guitar can be tuneful to the ear if we give it all we have. Does it mean we become ‘perfect’ guitarists? No it means we bring meaning to each activity and enjoy stopping by and smelling each flower along our path. A scribble that fills a piece of paper can be meaningful and insightful if we are our integral selves.

Mastery create no more longing
Awareness open my wings
Perfection wait on my open palm
Integrity give me your energy
Humble creations may they be revealed

I‘ve just found this quote by Helen Keller who seems to be able to put everything I’ve just said into two sentences…Love it!

I long to accomplish a great and noble task, but it is my chief duty to accomplish humble tasks as though they were great and noble. The world is moved along, not only by the mighty shoves of its heroes, but also by the aggregate of the tiny pushes of each honest worker. ~Helen Keller

Sunday 13 September 2009

Third Eye

I have come to know when working on a project how important it is to have a third eye to help you see a piece objectively. I wondered why this is. Is it because I am so absorbed in the process and in the detail that my working brain finds it difficult to adapt and see the bigger picture? If I distance myself from the project, say through time, my brain doesn’t have to adapt and it sees the big picture more immediately.

If I become the third eye for another person, I am not part of the process, the detail and so therefore I see the big picture.

Being too close doesn’t always allow us to see except through time when we are able to see both the detail and the big picture.

Or perhaps our brains can be trained to do both at the same time?

Saturday 12 September 2009

Personal aspirations or financial security or both...

Further to the question, 'if money was no object, where do you see yourself, what would you be doing in your life?' I received the following response from a dear friend whose answer is so honest and speaks thoughts that many of us identify with.

'I am a bit shamefaced about this but I haven't worked out longer term goals in life!!
In fact, I haven't even thought about it for awhile...I have been a bit short-term focused for awhile now and I know that's not great (ie how do you get anywhere if you don't know which direction you want to head in?)

But honestly, I have never been good at this stuff, I guess maybe because it implies a sense of control in life and predictability into the future that I don't have? Or I get a bit overwhelmed by all the choices/possibilities? A bit of both perhaps.


Certainly I think the technique of asking if money was no object, well, that's a good way to approach it (will think on it). Last time I asked myself that question my answer was to study sculpture and be an artist, but have since decided that money is an object(!) and that I want some sense of financial security.'

The struggle between personal aspiration and financial security has always played a big part of my life too...I wish I didn't have to be so focused on financial matters but I don't know how else I could support my loved ones.

I guess the way I deal with it is that I try to build things that channel my creative energies into every moment of my day as much as I can and as much as the restrictions of a structured working day allow...being a teacher allows me to release some of those sparks into my everyday environment... the outcomes aren't really quantifiable though and I'd love to be able to do more where I can look back and view the outcomes I have achieved...

I'd love to know how others make their personal aspirations come first before the issue of financial security. Can we all have the former without the latter or can't we? Perhaps we ought to be considering how they can coexist...


Laughter the best medicine...

The screenplay writers for The Proposal must have had the best time ever writing that screenplay. I can just see them brainstorming a list of funny scenarios and then weaving a story around it to keep the viewers laughing almost non-stop for 90 mins. What a fun job that must have been. For sure this has to be a successful film in terms of writers being able to communicate their thoughts in a very natural and lucid way and an audience being able to immerse into the flow of events as it transpired into moving pictures on the screen.

It's a bit like being a teacher; one feels as if they are on stage but of course one is not acting (unless they have had a sleepless night the night before and has had to wear a mask-the physical kind sunglasses and a hat to hide bags under the eyes not to mention the bad hair day and of the non-physcial kind: a mask to supress one's real feelings and elevate oneself to an energetic level) and the more natural we are ourselves, the more spontaneity and laughter flows. So a teacher doesn't always write their screenplay beforehand and more often than not the teacher with no masks is able to engage the minds of their charges and together everyone enjoys a memorable experience. One such episode occurred in a couple of classes last week when I introduced Public Information Systems as our next topic and teacher and students were in fits of laughter on saving different versions of their work as it progressed using the acronym that the tongue in cheek title gives. I am sure they will not forget this lesson!

Uncontollable waves of laughter has got to be the best medicine in teaching as well as in our lives, and the more spontaneous and unplanned the laughter the more joyful and memorable becomes the experience. I will not forget the 'patchouli' experience and the play on words with noone knowing what anyone was talking about and the uncontrollable laughter that resulted...

Going back to Sandra Bullock, my favourite part or should I say the most memorable part for me was the eagle, dog and phone scene. Bizarrre and surreal but oh so real!!! How many of us could relate to this incident...I certainly can...I knew which I would give to the bird! The dog or my phone!! I laughed uncontrollably...yes, I admit - I am one of those people 'married' not to my phone (as was suggested to me the other day), but to the people connected to my phone! But yes, I can laugh it off, knowing full well that on the surface it appears that technology runs my life but in all certainty it is only a tool - an extension of the pen and paper, an extension of the self that is always reachable connecting outwards as reciprocating loved ones share their thoughts and feelings inwards. Technology doesn't have to be dehumanising as symbolised by Sandra Bullock's power status character, if we use it to extend ourselves in a positive manner, if we use it sensitively given its potential to address a mass audience, and if we continue to be our integral selves.

May laughter always surround us...

Wednesday 9 September 2009

Teachers are learners too...

It was great to be back in class today...familiar faces, eager smiles, a sharing environment - younger and older students wanting to know about my holidays and how my art had progressed and the older students asking questions about their coursework and listening so that they can immerse into producing the best work they can...

Teaching is a partnership and I don't know who learns most, whether it is the teacher or the student who does most of the learning. It's amazing when you are able to speak to a class and you see their minds thinking as you speak; it makes you think about yourself and whether what you are sharing with them is helpful to your own growth as an individual. You see them listening and then you find yourself listening not only to them but also to yourself.

For one of the assessment tasks students are required to keep a record of the project they are about to manage. We were discussing the pros and cons of developing a Gantt Chart in a speadsheet as was done in previous years. I had noted that they had done a rushed job to fill in all the boxes of the work completed after the project was completed and not before, during and after as is expected to keep a detailed account of work in progress. Apart from using project management software, I suggested to students that they use a blog...to keep a record of progress with screenshots and video/audio attachments. They looked at me in disbelief without saying anything...Noting their disappointment, I asked what had not worked for them and they had almost unanimously stated that the constant writing up and the embarrassment that anyone in the world could read their boring blogs about a 'perfect' project they had to do to pass a course was fake and not representative of their real feelings. They felt as if they had to cover their real feelings and not present the frustrations that they often underwent to solve problems in ICT.

I was speaking to a Facebook generation here, a place where feelings are exposed, frustrations vented, joys expressed, where people get to know each other from the inside out first before the the outside in - where it is easier to reveal onself through writing and sharing emoticons than bonding on a physical level.

So I said, why do we wear masks...why can we not be ourselves when we are writing up our projects...why can't we say how frustrating it was to secure an interview with the interviewee one day then express our delight when it was secured the following day?

A student remarked that they do not feel free because grammar has to be used appropriately and it's not the normal way they would write; that they can't express their own individuality and personality when they are being forced to write in a certain manner.

So I asked if they speak in the same manner to their mum or teacher as they would their friends...and yes we managed to come to an understanding of the issues surrounding formality and informality and having a sense of purpose and a sense of audience.

Can we not be ourselves if we are feeling restrained by societal conventions and formalities...but surely we always need to be mindful of being kind and be fully aware of how much we listen to others and respect them for what they bring to a relationship? Aren't these virtues part of our innate being, our very existence that we either fully embrace or shut down and choose not to listen to?

While these thoughts were racing round in my head, we agreed that we would blog our progress, that we would speak for ourselves from ourselves, that we would unpeel all our masks, reveal all our being and let our personalities shine. We shall respect and embrace each individual, each frustration, each hope, each joy in a manner that is mindful of the others with whom we work, for whom we work and for ourselves...

I look forward to reading the project blogs this year...

Tuesday 8 September 2009

Manmade, instense, and it continues...

A dear friend spent some of her summer holiday in Palestine with a group of volunteers from the UK, Germany, Canada and Dubai to witness and document first-hand the people and their living culture suspended in time. Emotional wounds take generations to heal...why do we so often forget the human element in this struggle for power?

Zyara Palestine 2009


Source: Photo collage by Maitha Bin Demithan

Generations lost makes for an excellent screenplay...

Monday 7 September 2009

How to live our dreams...

Further to the question I posted yesterday, 'If you had all the money in the world, where do you see yourself? What would you be doing with your life?' I've had many more responses which for reasons of anonymity I shall post here. They hold a certain fascination for me because they are dreams which are held very dear to the people asked and because they speak of such integrity. There seems to be a thread common to many, that of sharing and giving and yet each embraces a unique approach as varied as the different personalities that are represented by each need to live life to the fullest.

' I would spend more time at home and with all the people that I love.'

'Does the survey point to Materialism or spirituality? I guess that's the point: Materialism = Its been never about money for me - I have never been the one to chase expensive cars! If I had access to all the money in the world I would not be able to cope..I'd hire Kofi Annan as my PA (you see I wouldn't give him complete control, despite his credentials - as the adage goes Absolute power currupts absolutely) Spirituality = And this is esoterically...I guess I'd like to act, I seem to have a flair for the theatrical!!'

'That's easy. Money doesn't bring happiness but lack of money for essentials brings misery so:
I would have a small, manageable house in UK near family, maybe in the Vale of Belvoira flat and a house in Scotland, one in Edinburgh and one further northa croft on Sanday in Orkneya place in France which would be a hotel/B and B/guest house/language centrea house in France for mea house in Italy for meall the above to be shared with friends and family

A car that is reliable, not necessarily flash but no reason to skimp if I have pots of cash
I would ensure that all my brothers and sisters and their kids are all financially secure - no mortgage, a property each, a car, but not millions in cash as that would ruin their lives
And then I would do whatever charity or voluntary work makes the most difference within my area of expertise, enjoy the different countries and try to share this with family and friends. I would also set up some businesses because it's important to create good jobs and give people a future.
BUT... I think it would be better not to have a lot of money because it would be hard to know who really is your friend.
Oh, and I would have two golden labradors.....'

'I want to help women, I'm just not sure how.'

'A mad woman in the french alps surrounded by dogs. And shoes.'

'big house on a hill, couple of horses, river, lake and a place where I could put my ideas to life... liquid propulsion, hydrolic bike, window cleaning crawlers, induction lighting, tree planting robots, crops robots, 3D colour holograms, global air purification, cancer nanorobots, airplane and buildings safety escape pods'

'I would help the needy and buy myself a nice studio in Austria somewhere in the mountains. I would also donate funds to the enviroment.'

'I would probably be travelling the world and doing charity work in lots of different countries and looking after orphaned children in less economically developed countries in Africa, Thailand and South America. I love learning about cultures, languages and engaging with new people and seeing historical things. I couldn't live in a harsh environment for too long and I'd raise awareness for cancer research in more economically developed countries. I'd support orphaned elephants and I'd teach people to dance.'

Sunday 6 September 2009

Have we forgotten how to live?


It's been a while since I've posted...Much has been achieved during the holidays and I procrastinate when I say I do not have time to post my little adventures...but I will post...Yesterday I posed a question to 8 friends which has not only got me thinking but also those around me... I asked, 'If you had access to all the money in the world where do you see yourself? What would you be doing with your life?' The answers have all been very interesting and I quote them here.

'I'm very satisfied with my life as it is.'

'I need to be able to practise playing the piano every day and have the hours in the day that allow me to do this. I want to be able to give to people who need. I need to be able to give back to a community that I live in. Perhaps help people who are psychologically challenged. Perhaps I should go into psychiatry.'

'Probably doing conservation and humanitarian work somewhere exotic - and fitting in learning languages in beautiful cities around the world - along with climbing the odd peak!'

'I'd spend more time with people I love.'

'I'd try to make others happy. Set up some projects to help them, especially humanitarian work like hospitals or centers to care for handicapped people.'

'I'd set up an animal rescue or animal park. Animals bring pure joy into people's lives and caring for nature teaches invaluable lessons in life such as respect and responsibility. Respect for nature is needed so that people start respecting themselves and those around them. '

'I want to be able to help people in the healing, curing process and one way I will be able to help them is through providing them with knowledge of their nutritional needs and encouraging them to live life to the fullest by eating properly!'

'I know what I wouldn't be doing.'

'I am still thinking of an answer to your question.'

I've been asked how I would live my dreams...they are fairly simple...I want a home!!! and a health and adventure farm in the Mazurian Lake district - the last vestiges of primedial forest in Europe!

These discussions lead me to wonder if we are we living our lives? Are we doing that what satisfies us and if we are not how can we raise our states of consciousness and create our own journeys rather than waiting for them to be created or for others to create them for us? Why do we feel we cannot create our own paths?

Monday 13 July 2009

An 'aha' moment

I’ve had a thought… an ‘aha’ moment…(now that’s a good name for a blog ~ Ania’s ‘aha’ moment blog~). We often say an art viewer might look at a piece of art work and see a part of themselves in the work. They will interpret the artist’s work in light of their own experiences. They shall see reflections of their experiences in the artist’s work. The artist might not had ever intended to convey the message or symbol read by the viewer but their experience interprets what they see in an art work.
Similarily, can we not say that when we meet another person or come to know another person that our subconscience decides if we like this person or not based on reflections of our own personal (and I would say emotional) experiences. If we like a person is it because we see our own love, happiness and joy reflected in the other person? If we take a dislike to another is it because we see our own failings in the other person? Does it not follow then that if others are unkind to us they are merely seeing reflections of themselves? And for the people who are always kind they see only kindness in the other? So if you are experiencing or suffering from others' negative behaviours perhaps look at your surroundings. Change them if you can and work with others who have a positive outlook on life and they shall see only positvie things about you and accept you for whom you are .

Thinking vs doing

Maybe I should start by blogging my thoughts…what will I call my blog? I deliberately called it Ania in action to motivate me to action! Action of what sort? I’m a busy teacher right? All teachers are full of action, forever meeting deadlines and churning out reports, marking and preparing lessons. And we still try to squeeze all our personal activities to fit into a day. So yes, I am action woman :P…today I was told I was super woman, not quite sure why...I should’ve asked for clarification…
So here I am thinking and not doing…the purpose of this blog was to record all my ‘doings’. But which doings are these? After all I teach, I prepare worksheets, interactive whiteboard activities, displays…anything worth recording?…hmmmm not so sure….and then there’s my personal development and interests. So just what do I do that’s worth recording? I guess time will tell.



So full circle and I’m back to thinking… maybe I need a thinking blog and I need a doing blog
~ Ania's THINKING blog ~ and ~ Ania's DOING Blog ~ It has been suggested to me that all should go into one as it will be easier to maintain and work on one blog. Therefore, if I heed advice it will be a mishmash but maybe that’s who I am right? A mishmash - Ania’s thinking doing mishmash blog…